Alien

I feel like an alien. I do not fit in with any type of social spere, I am 100% me and I don't find quite too many people I can be totally comfortable with.  Which is really okay, but I just lament when people I did get along with very comfortably, become not so comfortable:( I feel like I am a different sort of person, fully committed to enjoying the beauty around me- intend at enjoying gods creatures but different from other people. I am not satisfied living some mundane life. I must go somewhere.. Accomplish something.. I am..I Feel alone. 

I feel as if I cannot be satisfied going to the mall and worrying about the boy who checked so an so out. I think it's silly. I cannot be satisfied living a run of the mill life.  I do not think I could ever life the life of one who partakes daily in any type of substance foreign
To the body. It just feels so mundane, so pointless. I like to
Have my mind free and clear so I can think and ponder, I sometimes wish I could live in a cloud of smoke and be okay but it's just not for me. 

I like being me. I like the things that are important to me, the beauty I see, the different way I view the world.. But I sometimes wish I could succumb to ignorance and enjoy the bliss that comes with.. I wonder if Jesus ever felt so alone. I wonder if I just sound like an arrogant jerk. I do not like feeling out of my element, but again- I do not believe I was ever designed to lead a normal life, because even out of my element, I adapt. I relate. I learn, grow, change, morph into someone that survives.   

I am not trying to be preposterous And admit to some level of super human amazingness, I just know that every situation ive been in, I have come out of stronger, wiser and ready to embrace the next challenge.
I am destined for great things.
That or I am one arrogant person very full of imagination - I haven't figured it out yet

His beloved