a shadow of a memory

I feel like my mom is slipping away from my mind, my memory, my life, my heart.. my reality. I just realized that My children will never know her.. I can no longer make any new memories with her.. I only have.. what I have. I know that death is not so much a bad thing as a christian.. but it doesnt make missing someone any easier. But its so cool to think about heaven. that people years and years ago will be there, and people years from now will join them.. and my mom. and me. I know my blogs have been quaint and short... but its just.. realizing things.. sometimes it hurts, sometimes its refreshing.. this would be the former.

my mom is so beautiful.

sitting still

Recently, Being in Washington :), I felt a renewed desire to travel the world and tell people about Jesus. Its the only thing I want to do with my life-- travel, live in new places and cultutres and learn about people while sharing my faith in christ. Not shoving faith down someones throat. I dont want that. I wanna go. thats it. this blog will be short. I just want to go. and live and experience and breathe and love and live... for him.