The Holy Spirit has been whispering one word to me for the past month. FAVOR. Its getting quite frustrating because I'm not certain why He continues to let me know I have favor in my life. I feel like who I am is blessed with a continual amount of favor. Who the heck am I that I would be so blessed. I am a clumsy fool, stumbling over even the smallest sinful blocks that would come my way. The thing I am left to wonder after deciding that I am blessed with a larger than normal level of favor in my life is why. For what purpose has God ordained that I should need favor to exceed his plans? I am a dandilion flolating on the wind right now. I know where I want to go, where I should go but have a reasonably difficult time getting there. I like my stumbling blocks - far more than I should. I feel as if the blessed favor is wasted on me. Being a missionary? There are better suited canidates. Why me? Favor? I am still pondering such things.
_his beloved, always
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