The riches of your love will always be enough

Ironically, many people backslide. Yours truly is included in that statement. If you really read through the entire bible, you see the story generation after generation - we slip, he picks us up. But why?

I am quick to suggest that it may possibly be because Jesus is not present in our lives. However, Judas worked right next to him and his selfishness made him betray Jesus- not just walk away from him but betray him.
The bible lays it out very logically, the fall of man and the effects of sin in our lives and the lives all around us. The bible also lets us know that when one sins, we all feel the effect of said sin. This is why, in a world created by a pure and good God, can be full of so much heartache. Why the balance of logic is off- why bad things happen to good people. Why children get cancer. Why people get rapped. Sin runs rampant in this world we live in. We are run by our desires - be it greed, selfishness, lust, power, money, even the high from doing the right thing etc..
However, meeting Jesus is in theory supposed to change all that.

Because the bible says we are made in his image, made to love, made to be loved - I believe things only fit quite 100% when we truly embrace that relationship. But once that relationship is captured, why do we abandon it? You would think that tasting something so pure would keep us there.

For myself, I think I let the relationship between Jesus and I become stagnant. I did not make any time for him. James 4:1 says draw near to god and he will draw near to you. Well how the heck does that get accomplished when you've had your head turned away for so long?

I think sin tastes good but it leaves us empty. In the story of Hosea, the people ate rice cakes that were sweet but wouldn't fill them up- sin. It's a perfect analogy. Sin tastes good. It's easy to stick to a diet of good tasting yet empty filing rice cakes.
I am by no means speaking in authority of fact on this topic, and my logic makes sense to me right now so this is my reality. However, I am young and ignorant of many things and I know, that one piece of information may make this all make sense. Until then, I do believe I will continue dissecting my strained relationship with God without actually doing something to fix it. But I do want to fix it. Apathy.

I believe apathy is the biggest killer if the Christian church.

- even still, his beloved