The intricate connectivity of those we love

A friend of mine's uncle is dying. Her cousin will be without a father in a couple days. Her Aunt without a husband and the family lacking in someone of worth. Uncle, Father, cousin, aunt, husband, friend. All these titles given to such a small amount of people but what a huge impact a death in anyone's life has on others.

I've been giving this a lot of thought. Just the fact that as a society - we are a community orientated people. Albeit this community is mostly electronically socially orientated - we still desire community. We still interact and share our lives with more than just our friends. When my mom died, my friends had to deal with it too. When my life shatters - my friends have to deal with it in some way. Same thing with my friends. I was feelings really content (as i deep cleaned my place) when i got a phone call from my friend telling me the news. Literally in about 5 seconds - my disposition and emotional status is changed. It effects me too. My friend will obviously receive the brunt of the sorrow but I will grieve for my friend. I will grieve for their family - their families friends. I didn't realize just how connected we really are.

I was a little saddened by my friends news. I cant begin to imagine how I acted after my mom died. But I appreciate the friends who stuck by me and treated me normal even though I was anything but normal. I am saddened at the ones who were too uncomfortable around me to hear me. But I understand. I love people and I love to share my heart with them - I just never knew I would be sharing more than that and caring more than I thought. Not that Im upset by it - I am just amazed at how as completely different people become friends - and learn to love eachother and walk with eachother through the hard stuff. My life isn't just mine. I share it with others and when they grieve - I will grieve and likewise. How beautiful of Jesus to know we needed that.

--xx his beloved